Sweet boy, I can hardly compose myself enough to write anything about you now at this moment on the day I had to let you go, but I will say this: I am a mess and miss you terribly already! I want some kind of assurance that you are warm and happy and joyful, and that I made the right decision. But for now I just feel extreme sorrow and acute pain and a HUGE void that not Seuss or anyone else could possibly fill. Ever.
I do have the most wonderful friends. They let me talk and cry and they cried with me. They know better than to think I could even try to contain myself and I love them for that.
I feel numb. In the middle of this move. I have to keep going, whether I want to or not. Whether I think I'm strong enough or not. And now I have to do it without you. I'm just devastated and my only solace could arise from knowing that you aren't suffering. You have been the most amazing companion to me, during a third of my life. You were with me four times as long as any guy, and through friendships I broke off long ago. I think even though it all happened pretty fast, that you had suffered enough.
I just love you to the very end, and imagine that you are free.
Sweet boy, I can hardly compose myself enough to write anything about you now at this moment on the day I had to let you go, but I will say this: I am a mess and miss you terribly already! I want some kind of assurance that you are warm and happy and joyful, and that I made the right decision. But for now I just feel extreme sorrow and acute pain and a HUGE void that not Seuss or anyone else could possibly fill. Ever.
I do have the most wonderful friends. They let me talk and cry and they cried with me. They know better than to think I could even try to contain myself and I love them for that.
I feel numb. In the middle of this move. I have to keep going, whether I want to or not. Whether I think I'm strong enough or not. And now I have to do it without you. I'm just devastated and my only solace could arise from knowing that you aren't suffering. You have been the most amazing companion to me, during a third of my life. You were with me four times as long as any guy, and through friendships I broke off long ago. I think even though it all happened pretty fast, that you had suffered enough.
I just love you to the very end, and imagine that you are free.
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